i realize now that i love my life...have loved my life. I love everything about it, everyone in it, and now that i have something so wonderful and exciting, there is no way in fucking hell ill ever let it go. Ive tried to think objectively, tried to weigh the pros and the cons, consider what i should do or how i should proceed with as much caution and thought as i possibly can, and all that has led to is worry. Fucking worry.
When i stop worrying, i feel great. I feel healthy for the first time in my life. Im not worried about what the future will hold for me because i know no matter what, love is the only thing in my life that matters. Not